Sunday morning, the pediatrician arrived to check out Haven
and answered our, ahem Ben’s, many questions.
After he left, the nurse came in and said that C wanted to spend some
time with Haven before she was discharged.
Shortly before she was discharged, she asked us to come down to all say
goodbye. I had a pit in my stomach all
morning thinking about these moments.
Over the last couple days, we had truly fallen in love with C. She is a strong, beautiful, and selfless
woman with an infectious laugh. We
watched her continually put Haven’s needs before her own wants and
desires. We formed a deep love and insane respect for
her.
The next 30
minutes were the hardest, sweetest, and worst moments of my life. Watching C grieve her loss all while boasting
at how she knew her decision was the best for her baby was heart wrenching. We cried and prayed over her and then she
said her last goodbyes. The walk back to
the room was the worst walk of my life.
As we pushed Haven to our room, my heart was broken for this selfless
woman. I struggled with guilt and doubt,
but the Lord sweetly reminded me of the many times she confirmed that she
adored us and was so glad she chose us to raise Haven.
Adoption is born from
brokenness. It was never God’s plan
A. But, thankfully He makes beauty from
ashes and this adoption is a true picture of just that. I contemplated and prayed about how much I
would share about C, but what I know is that I want to celebrate what a
wonderful woman she truly is! Birth
mom’s get such a bad rap and in most cases it simply just isn’t
true.
She could have taken
the selfish way out and just terminated her pregnancy, but she didn’t, she
chose life. She chose to carry
Haven to term and selflessly put Haven’s needs before her own. It wasn’t that she
didn’t want Haven, that’s the farthest thing from the truth. But, she was mature
enough to realize she just couldn’t give Haven what she felt she deserved. She loves Haven,
without a shadow of a doubt. She didn’t take the
easy way out. She took the hardest way. And she deserves to
be commended and celebrated!
C will
forever hold a special place in our hearts!
We hope that with Christ’s help, we will raise and love Haven and that
she will become all the C dreams she will become. And we plan to always celebrate her and tell
Haven about what an amazing birth mom she has!
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3 Responses to “Saying Goodbye ”
I too am an adoptive Mom who is so grateful for our son's birth mom. I wish you a lifetime of joy with your little one.
Beautiful Leah. Born from brokenness is right. So thankful we cling to the One who redeems the brokenhearted and creates beauty from ashes.
Oh, I cannot imagine what that goodbye was like. What a wonderful person she is, giving up her little daughter to be raised by two loving, Christian parents.
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