Archive for March 2014

2 Months Old!

Monday, March 31, 2014

Little love,
     Today you turn two months old!  Some days it feels like you were just born, other days it feels like you've always been here.  This month you've been to the doctor twice, had your first shots, traveled to Charleston again, gone to the park twice, went to church for the 1st time, and had a special visitor, "aunt" Nikki!  You also started going to the babysitter and mommy started back to work.  You seem to be doing really well there, although it breaks mommy's heart every day when she leaves.  You are smiling all the time and prefer your mommy!  Daddy may or may not be a little jealous.  You moved up to 3 month clothes and are quickly growing out of some of your 3 month outfits.  You are still eating 4oz every 3 hours, sleeping up to 6 hours straight at night in your Fisher-Price Rock 'n Play every night.  Your wubbanub pacifier goes with us everywhere.  You still have thrush... today we did a new treatment that stained your tongue and lips purple.  You look hilarious! Hopefully this will do the trick.  You have become more vocal and love to kick your legs when you're excited.  Bath time is still your favorite time of the day.  You're in the 75th percentile for height, weight, and head circumference. You've stolen our hearts baby girl.  You are laid back, sweet, squishy, and get cuter with each passing day!  We love you oh so much little love!! 

Some outtakes from our shoot...

enough already mom! 

Ben's brother and his girlfriend sent these - um adorable!?

And she fell asleep...
modeling is exhausting!
getting a little beauty sleep before round 2 
sweet smiles

every girl needs a sparkly headband 
such a sassy sleeper 

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Laying my Things Aside...

Saturday, March 29, 2014

Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal, but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal.  For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. 
Matthew 6:19-21
Recently while trying to maneuver the stroller through the busy crowd at the mall, I was flooded with a bunch of thoughts.

First thought…
Why have people not figured out how to walk through the mall?
Stopping mid walk,
walking against “traffic”,
walking full speed out of a store into oncoming “traffic.”
It’s enough to drive a typically patient person insane.

Second thought…
Wow, I’m totally unstylish and broke. 
As I looked around at all the adorable clothes, jewelry, and shoes I felt despair.
Yes, despair.
This feeling of complete inadequacy.
As I watched trendy girls walk by, I was envious.
I wished I had more money.
Wished I was 3 sizes smaller.
Wished my house looked like pottery barn.
I left the mall feeling discouraged.
Please tell me I am not the only one this happens to?

Materialism has always been something I’ve struggled with.  The problem with materialism is you are always thirsty.  There is this continual feeling that if I can just get that rug or those shoes or that bigger house then I will be content. 
And thus ensues a crazy cycle of wanting bigger, better, and more. 

I’ve been on this crazy cycle so many times.
I’ve spent much of my life dreaming for what’s next. 
And once I get it there is still this void.
This God sized void that I know only He can fill.
And yet, in my sin, there are still days when I leave the mall in despair.

I was blessed (and cursed) to marry a man who could care less about material things.  He has challenged me in so many ways and questions my motives all too often.  My hubby would be happy living in a shack, as long as he had us girls.  He never wants for anything.  And I’m envious of his ability to hold little value in earthly treasures.

You see, there is nothing wrong with things.
There is nothing wrong with couches, curtains, and clothes.
There is nothing wrong with being stylish.
There is nothing wrong with enjoying decorating my house.
It’s when these things become my purpose.
When my thoughts, life and energy revolves around these things.

Then Jesus told his disciples, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me. For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will find it. For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world and forfeits his soul? Or what shall a man give in return for his soul? For the Son of Man is going to come with his angels in the glory of his Father, and then he will repay each person according to what he has done.
Matthew 16:24-27

I’ve got a long way to go, but through His word, my hubby and some great books the Lord has opened my eyes to my sin and has started to strip me of my desire for earthly things.
I’ve become so disgusted by the American dream.
It’s all about excess.
All about bigger and better and more.
And I’m simply not going to buy in to it anymore. 
It’s not satisfying and I always leave thirsty.

If I claim that Jesus is my sole treasure, then my actions should reflect it.  For me, that means pursuing Him about all else, laying my things aside, and realizing this life is about Him, not me.

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Adjusting to Life as a Working Momma

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

It’s been quiet over here on my little corner of the internet.
It’s not that I haven’t wanted to blog, I have. 
I have a lot on my heart right now.
Ben and I are dreaming up some big dreams for our little family.
And our sweet baby girl is getting cuter by the minute.
I’m hoping to get it all up on this little ole blog.
But, time is not something I have much of lately
I started back to work on the 17th.
I had dreaded that date since the day little love was born. 
Not because I hate my job, I actually really enjoy it.  
But, because I knew leaving her would be hard.
Home with her is where I would rather be. 
And adjusting to life as a working mom has been really tough.
Most days I feel like I am running off fumes.
And there just aren’t enough hours in the day to get “things” done.
I’m slowly learning to let the unimportant things go.  
It’s ok if the clean laundry sits in the dryer all week.
It’s ok if the tumble weeds of dog hair consume my wood floors.
It’s ok to eat cereal for dinner.
It’s ok to come home and take a long nap with Haven.
It’s going to take some time to figure out our new normal.
And through it all God continues peeling away layers of my heart, showing me what is truly important and teaching me to rely fully on Him.  

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Becoming an Encourager

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called "Today," so that none of you may be hardened by sin's deceitfulness.
Hebrews 3:13

I know, in marriage, and many relationships for that matter, in the monotony that can sometimes become our lives, it’s so easy to focus on the negative.  It’s so easy for me to see all the things that Ben is doing wrong. 
And before you know it, instead of being on his team,
I am against him. 
This me against you mentality.
 Wrong against right. 
Just like Hebrew’s 3:13 says above, it’s so easy to let the devil deceive us in to believing we are somehow against our spouses and eventually we’ve become hardened toward them.  I can think of countless times that I have, in my own sin and self righteousness, stacked brick by brick up until eventually I have this wall between us because I have become so deceived by the enemy.  I’ve forgotten that we are in this together and we are one, not two.

Ben and I both share a love language
words of encouragement
I tend to think you can have more than one love language, but there is always one that is primary.  For Ben, his primary love language is words of encouragement. We have this little game we play occasionally.  Sometimes we do it at night before we go to sleep, other times we do it while driving along in the car, or sometimes even after a heated argument.  He or I will randomly ask questions like,

tell me 5 things you love about me
tell me 3 ways you’ve seen me grow since we’ve been married
tell me 1 thing I am doing really well right now as a husband/wife

And then we’ll both spend time encouraging one another, talking about things we love about each other and things that will speak life and truth into one another.

And sometimes when we are just coming out of a heated argument and we’re both so blinded that it’s hard to see the good in another, we’ll take time re-living our love story and reminiscing about all the sweet details of how we came to be.  Instantly walls are torn down and everything comes in to perspective.

Just last week we spent some time before we went to sleep encouraging each other by talking about the ways we’ve seen one another grow in our relationship with the Lord over the last year.  I can’t tell you how much my heart swells when I hear my husband speak truth over my weary heart.  

I want to be the type of wife, friend, sister, and daughter that is an encourager. 
One who speaks life and truth and love into the people I care about.
At the end of the day, I want my husband to remember hearing more encouraging things from me than discouraging.

Therefore encourage one another and build one another up, just as you are doing.
1 Thessalonians 5:11

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Birth Announcement

Thursday, March 6, 2014

Now that I have sent them all in the mail, I can officially share our little loves birth announcement:

This sweet picture is one of the many they took at the hospital.  The hospital had an amazing photographer and they even got some pictures of Haven with her birth mom!  Here are a few of my favs...

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One month old

Monday, March 3, 2014

Sweet Haven,
       We can't believe that you've been here for a whole month!  It's been such a sweet month and daddy and I are overwhelmed with how much we adore you!  This month you breathed air for the first time, flew across the country, went on a mini road trip, met both sides of your family, been on walks (all of which you have slept through) and have been to the doctor 3 times.  We've had lots of visitors and every one of them says you are even cuter in person.  We joke that your favorite accessory is your tongue because you are always sticking it out.  Sometimes at night or during a nap your daddy and I are so tempted to wake you because we miss you!  You LOVE to eat and are eating 4oz every 3 hours.  You hate being swaddled and prefer to stretch and sleep with your arms above your head.  Every morning you spend about 30 minutes staring at yourself in the mirror while mommy gets ready.  You are on a good schedule right now and are sleeping up to 6 hours stretches at night!  Your naps are another story and you'd prefer to sleep on your belly.  You still have thrush... it's clear as long as we are on medicine, but the second we stop its back, YUCK!  You are so close to cracking a smile, so close!  Your newborn clothes are finally becoming too small and we are about to move up to 0-3 month size clothes.  Daddy and I are praying BIG things for your life and hope you will shine His light brightly!  I also pray that you and I will have a deep, close relationship.  You are such a sweet girl and we are daily humbled that God chose us to be your mommy and daddy!  We love you little love!

Here are some outtakes from our "photo shoot" ...

Peyton wanted to help  

big yawn! 


modeling is exhausting!
adore this one! 
that belly!
she loves her daddy

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